“In running, it doesn’t matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say ‘I have finished.’ There is a lot of satisfaction in that.”
One year ago my family buried my little brother Trevor on a beautiful fall afternoon on October 31st 2009. Trevor is buried in my grandparents and Mothers hometown Eureka. It is the most beautiful and peaceful place I can think of. That day, week, and month was definetely the hardest time of my life. When I reflect on the day of Trevor’s funeral I am overwhelmed by the amount of support my family had. I have such an amazing extended family that came from long distances in the drop of a hat to support and comfort my family. I feel so blessed to have such a strong and united family that would do anything for me.
Exactly one year after my brother was buried I accomplished a huge goal, I ran my first half marathon. I had wanted to run a half marathon for awhile however I truly never thought I could actually do it. I lacked the courage and the confidence to follow through with my dreams. I have learned a lot in the last year and gained so much strength and confidence in myself, however the most important lesson that Trevor’s death taught me is that WHEN THERE IS A WILL THERE IS A WAY. Life is so fragile and too short to sit around thinking about what you wish you would have done or what you want to aspire to become. It is the action that counts. I so strongly believe that with enough will, enough faith and enough courage anyone can accomplish anything they set their mind too.
So I DID IT!!! I ran a half marathon. It was challenging and it pushed me beyond my comfort zone. I was forced to dig deep within myself and rely on my emotions to carry me through to the end. My adrenaline carried my through the first 6 miles, and after the adrenaline high wore off I thought about Trevor. I reflected on the beautiful scenic Provo canyon and cool fall breeze and thought about how happy and proud of me my little brother must have been. Thinking of Trevor pushed me to do better than I ever thought I was physically or mentally capable of. As I approached the last mile a song came on my I-pod that reminds me of Trevor. Running into the crowd of people at the end tears came flowing from my eyes. I was overwhelmed with emotion and so proud of myself for sticking to my goals and pushing myself to the finish. My goal was to finish the half marathon in 1 hour 50 minutes and I finished in 1 hour 36 minutes and 20 seconds. I averaged a 7 minute 21 second mile pace. I am still in awe of how well I ran this race and know that my brother must have helped carry me to the finish.
My friend Julia ran the race with me as well of course. I am so glad I have her to run with because otherwise I know I would not have gone this far this quick with my running. Julia’s goal was to finish the race in 2 hours 30 minutes and she finished in 2 hours 10 minutes. I cannot believe how well she did and I am so proud of her for pushing herself so hard and smoking her goal time.
Every single person that finished the half marathon accomplished a personal goal. Running really isn’t about winning it is about pushing yourself and having the courage to pursue a dream.
Me and Julia after the race. WE DID IT!!! Since this was a halloween half marathon most people dressed up in costumes which made it a lot of fun. I would find myself making mental notes in my head to catch the cowboy or the cowgirl in front of me. This was such a fun first half marathon.
YEAH BABY!!! Seriously still in awe that we did so well. I am seriously so proud of both of us. It feels so rewarding to push yourself harder than you ever thought possible. Working hard in life is so worth it.
Me and my littlest fan James. I was so excited that my family and Brian were there to support me at the race. It means so much to me to see people supporting my dreams.